high risk economic suicide to avoid unsustainable cost of living raise in this rat race

Scared to actual suicide, thinking about economic one. It may feel strange to read something like this in this subreddit, I hope it won’t get deleted. I’m in my mid 30, grow up in south Europe, I should be a young professional “launched” in the core of his career but basically every second of my life I feel stuck in endless cycle of fear of insecurity (about income, shelter) and total despise of the corporate world. I don’t want to give a comprehensive story of my life, and I forecast many answe